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In Elementary School

Monsters were under my bed

And in movies.

They kept me up at night,

and the lights on

In Middle School

Monsters moved into my mind.

Their claws sliced my hips

and wrists.

and left scars you couldn’t see

In High School

The Monster persuaded me.

Nothing tasted as good as

My lunch coming back up

Or my bones against my fingers.

In College

I learned The Monster was me.

I scared myself

I scarred myself

I starved myself

And that is when i knew i could save myself.